17 July 2012

words to live by....

At the moment life seems a bit crazy.  People keep saying things to me like "you're an inspiration" to which I follow up with the fact that there is a fine line between inspiring and insane.  I don't think what I do is inspiring - I think it's pretty f*&#ing crazy actually.  Sometimes I break for a moment and think "why am I doing this?" Why didn't I just move back to the city and get a regular job with a salary and benefits and steadiness.  Why am I going out on this limb? Jumping in with both feet? Taking this risk? But I guess it goes back to not wanting a life un-lived.  I don't want to look back and think "wow, I should have...." about anything.  You don't know how many days lie ahead and you certainly don't know what they will bring you so your best bet is to try to follow your heart and your dreams and take risks.  Some days are scary and some days are beyond exhilarating and each day, these are the words I am trying to live by:
"Go now, and live. Experience. Dream. Risk. Close your eyes and jump. Enjoy the free fall. Choose exhilaration over comfort. Choose magic over predictability. Choose potential over safety. Wake up to the magic of everyday life. Make friends with your intuition. Trust your gut. Discover the beauty of uncertainty. Know yourself fully before you make promises to another. Make millions of mistake so that you will know how to choose what your really need. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often and without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Be wrong every once in a while, and don't be afraid to admit it. Awaken to the brilliance in ordinary moments. Tell the truth about yourself no matter what the cost. Own your reality without apology. See goodness in the world. Be Bold. Be Fierce. Be Grateful. Be Wild, Crazy and Gloriously Free. Be YOU. Go now, and live."

- Jeanette Leblanc

09 July 2012

the thing about girlfriends...

The thing about girlfriends is that, unlike family, they don't love you because they have to but they love you because they choose to. I am, undoubtedly, blessed with girlfriends of many sorts and from many moments in my life.  There are however, two ladies with whom I have grown from a 13yr old little girl to now an almost mid-thirty year old woman.  These ladies are special.  They love me for being a little bit crazy, for being just like them in so many ways while at the same time being just so different.  They love me despite the fact that I am sometimes inappropriate and certainly have an irreverent sense of humour.  They love are the kind of friends who love you because you are crazy enough to take leaps of faith and then are sweet enough to call you brave.  They tell you that they are proud of you and that you can do anything.  They remind you that good things are always ahead of you - like first kisses and falling in love again. They recant stories of their kids which are a direct example of the amazing mothers that they are.  They are humble and sweet and kind.  They are also fierce and protective.  And they are mine.  All mine.  No matter where I live or the adventures I set out on, they love me.  When I return, it's always to open arms.  When I fall they know when to reach out their hand to help me and know when I need to find that way on my own.  They are women who I grew up next to, who know my secrets and those stories we promised to never tell anyone, ever.  They are the best audience to all my crazy stories.  They are the reason behind my belt-it-out-in-the-middle-of-the-restaurant laughter.  They are my heart and as much as I try I cannot find enough words to tell the world how much they mean to me.   


Tonight, over a dinner which was way overdue as they typically get in hectic life schedules, we did what we do best - talked and laughed and ate.  I think I may have accidentally received the caffeinated cappuccino post-dinner as I am so wide awake in the middle of the night.  But I guess it does give me the moment to just take in the loveliness that is girlfriend love.  My girls are amazing mothers as I can only hope to one day be.  They are patient and kind and much more graceful than I.  People looking at us may wonder because we are all so unique from each other but I suppose that is what connects us.  They give me so much and I can only hope that in some way I can do the same for them.  So do me a favour, whoever is out there reading this, call a girl friend and tell her you love her.  Send her an email or a hand-written note and let her know that she is in your heart and why.  Take this moment to let her know that you think she is wonderful and lovely and then list all the reasons that you can think of.  If you are lucky enough to be blessed with people who choose to love you, be thankful and count your blessings.  Men can most certainly have friendships but there is nothing - NOTHING - in this world that is comparable to the love of girlfriends.  That's the thing about girlfriends......