We've just passed the midway point to the year and last night in yin, my mind went to reflecting on this. Am I "living" my word for 2017? Am I in fact being courageous and stepping outside of my comfort zone? Am I crossing things off my 'forty in the year of 40' list? Am I looking at my vision board and manifesting what I want into my life? It's the check in point and I'm asking myself where I am at. Seems the perfect place to pick up where I have left off in the past few months of writers block. Have I been lacking courage by not actually allowing what I've been feeling to materialize into words? Until they are written, are they in fact true?
The ironic thing to me is that over the last few weeks, when I have struggled to focus, I've had a few friends who have comment to me that I have inspired them. For the life of me I can't see how. To be completely honest, I sometimes lie on my mat each night and wonder how I got through the day. I can't even fathom how I have affected others in such a positive light. There have been moments in the past few months where I felt like I was barely holding on, seeking inspiration more than I think giving it. Perception is an interesting beast - where we see ourselves may not always equate to how others do.
So here we are already in July and I spent some time with my "list" today making revisions to ensure that what I am including are things that challenge me, move me forward and are an example of my word for the year. OK, let's be honest some things are also completely random and just for fun but that is what life is about right?! To date, I've only crossed off 5 so I've got a bit of work to do. But I can't stay stuck - I need to let go of these past few months of smog and jump back into my life. It's ok to stumble, but you have to get back up. So.... here I am, getting back up and to keep myself accountable I'm sharing my list with others (slightly revised from v1). Here we go.....
Perform in front of people